As annoying and pestering children may be, they bring us true joy. They can make us smile uncontrollably because of the way they are. They're simple minded, not in the disasterous sense, but in the way they enjoy things whatever they may be. Bouncing a ball may as well be the most interesting thing they have ever done. It's when they really enjoy themselves you realise just how complicated life has gotten. But we can't help what we have to do. Our lives are predestined and we can't stay like children forever. Sometimes I feel I've grown up too fast and other times I'm too childish. I suppose I like the idea of never having to worry about the things an adult has to worry about. The idea of responsibility has yet to dawn on me.

I enjoy sport. I just don't participate enough because I'm not good at it. And I'm not dedicated to it. But I can play, just not with people my age because boys my age are competitive. And I don't want to be a burden for my team.

I'm beginning to love music so much that if I ever like a girl, she has to have some sort of taste that is coherent to mine. I think that will score her many many points or at least make me want to open my heart to her. The chances are extremely low though. Not every girl I come across will bounce to Funky DL, or chill out to Nujabes. And it's likely that same girl won't rock out to Blink 182 or sing to Jason Mraz. To find a girl who can just lie down on the grass with me listening to Uyama Hiroto, to me, would be the most romantic and possibly arousing thing I would ever experience. I love the idea of love.

But I'm in debted to reality.